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Jul. 14th, 2020 03:56 pmokay, so, i don't remember much of this one. and i havent talked about 2 other dreams yet so this is news, but ive had several dreams recently about time travel and/or changing events and challenging fate.
i don't actually remember most of this one, but i do remember that i was back to a meeting that took place in real life last week actually, where i was talking to a girl from my high school. we were never close, but she was nice, and suddenly i realised that she was going to die soon in an accident, since apparently i had come back from the future. i had tried to let her know without having to explain how i would know.
soon after, i was talking to a friend online, just after being given the news that the girl had passed anyway, and that my warning hadn't been adequate and she had gone anyway. i had told my friend, stricken with guilt, and instead of consoling me or, idk, being surprised about me traveling back in time and knowing the future, she simply started talking about finding her old blog and telling me that no, actually lives could be saved, because her blog was filled with (TW) suicide letters that she hadn't acted on, or at least not succeeded with, and that she was still here. i remember partly thinking well that's great, i'm happy you're still here, but also being upset that she would bring that up right after i had told her about being unable to save someone elses life, as if her words would help me in any way.
actually, now that i remember, before that i had spent most of my dream running around this southern european house that was also half a mall with a restaurant in it, trying to find a bathroom so i could do number 2. but the only thing that still stays with me as strongly as it did as i was dreaming was the feeling of helplessness and guilt over not being able to save the girl despite my attempts. this time, i challenged fate and lost.
i don't actually remember most of this one, but i do remember that i was back to a meeting that took place in real life last week actually, where i was talking to a girl from my high school. we were never close, but she was nice, and suddenly i realised that she was going to die soon in an accident, since apparently i had come back from the future. i had tried to let her know without having to explain how i would know.
soon after, i was talking to a friend online, just after being given the news that the girl had passed anyway, and that my warning hadn't been adequate and she had gone anyway. i had told my friend, stricken with guilt, and instead of consoling me or, idk, being surprised about me traveling back in time and knowing the future, she simply started talking about finding her old blog and telling me that no, actually lives could be saved, because her blog was filled with (TW) suicide letters that she hadn't acted on, or at least not succeeded with, and that she was still here. i remember partly thinking well that's great, i'm happy you're still here, but also being upset that she would bring that up right after i had told her about being unable to save someone elses life, as if her words would help me in any way.
actually, now that i remember, before that i had spent most of my dream running around this southern european house that was also half a mall with a restaurant in it, trying to find a bathroom so i could do number 2. but the only thing that still stays with me as strongly as it did as i was dreaming was the feeling of helplessness and guilt over not being able to save the girl despite my attempts. this time, i challenged fate and lost.