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Jul. 24th, 2020 01:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ruicoBEACH HOUSE SHENANIGANS!
i was visiting a good old friend, not a real one i think, she seemed to be like the type who'd be an 'influencer' but like the kind whos vegan and like 7 years ago when most sponsorships were like swimsuit brands. and like an australian blonde skinny girl, except she was american. we were in her beach house, she said it was in florida. it didn't really feel like florida, not that ive ever been there, but yeah. it was nice is all i know. almost barbie like. i asked if she lived there all year and she was like duh, im from north carolina. she only went here w her family in summer and had invited me + other friends many summers over the years to have some company in this big luxurious house. i remember there being like 4 other girls that were her friends, i didnt know them but we got to know each other and became friends when playing in the water.
there was only like a tiny beach, kind of like the secret one in acnh, and next to it were cliffs too, and we sat on one and enjoyed the sun after playing with some dolphins. i wasnt super scared when doing that, but out of habit, since i have some anxiety lol, i was watching the water and any bigger shadows. i saw 2 that looked sorta like dolphins, but their back fins were bigger, almost sharper.. i said "dolphins" out loud just as i realised they weren't -- they were killer whales (well, orcas, but in my dream i thought killer whales bc that sounds scarier and that's what i had just read the night before irl in a dnd book about monster stats). one of them rolled onto the beach and the other swam up close to the cliff we were on, as if threatening us. i was like UHHH FUCK and moved towards the house entrance and my friend grabbed my arm and told me we had to stand still. out of anxiety i just went NOPE and ran towards the house and got there safely. a few seconds after, the rest of the girls joined. also, that thing happened where the skies instantly turned grey when danger happened LOL so suddenly it was all gloomy. she was kind of mad at me and i got really upset and mad at her too.
i dont remember much but we had a fight, and a kind of serious one, not just about the orcas lol, but enough for me to seriously want to go home. i first went to the guest room just to cool down, the room where me and the other visiting friends slept.
it wasn't as luxurious as the rest of the house. the beds were taking up most of the rooms, all single beds separated by thin walls and then curtains covering them. there was also a small bathroom for us to share, though, and table with a mirror, all furniture was pretty simple and wooden, kind of ugly compared to the rest of the house, but it was still nice being there.
i had become friends w the other girls visiting too, like the kind of closeness you can only feel after having spent every waking moment for days with complete strangers, like we had gotten very close it felt, but we also knew so little about each other.
i went to my bed to cool down but was too upset, so i sat up and pulled aside the curtain to the friend next to me who was napping, about to complain about my friend, the host, when i noticed the letter in her arms that she hadn't opened yet. it said "happy birthday" from her, and i realised i couldn't complain abt this girl who was actually long time friends w all of us to a girl who i had only known for a few days. if she had done the same to me, i would've taken my friend's side as well.
i told her happy birthday, not knowing it was her bday, and she smiled, picking up the letter and reading it. i read a bit over her shoulder, realising my friend had been a really nice and thoughtful friend to her, so i obviously couldn't talk about her to this girl. the reminder that my friend was actually a really sweet girl also just made me feel more upset.
idk, there was probably also clearly something more going on, she and i had fought and it seemed like more than just a friendship thing? but something neither of us were brave enough to get into. something more had been budding for a while and while we both knew it, it actually never got to a romance state, both of us being too stubborn and scared. i think she felt like she had to live up to the expectations of her, being a classic 'perfect' girl, and i felt like i was from a completely different world, especially when visiting her in these surroundings. like i came from a boring rainy country no one cared about, and while this wasn't actually her world, it still felt like it.
anyway, i decided i was going to go home, and, still offended she agreed, ordering to bring me to the airport. it was a tiny coastal town, so the airport was little and shitty, adn i got on the small plane, only for it to crash, or at least for me to fall out while we were still taking off. i honestly dont remember how it happened, this being a dream and all, but i ended up falling in the water, terrified again, bc deep open water... my fear lol. but realising the coast was pretty close, i only had to swim like 200 meters, so it wasnt a big deal and nothing happened lol.
i came back to dry land and it was baically this coastal gravel road, with water on one side and houses on the other. not just houses, they were like farms. or like horse places clearly, like hers too she had a riding ground in front of her house too behind the outer walls
anyway the one at the end of the road was like. kind of run down and seemed abandoned, despite there still being horses outside. very unlike the fancier ones next to it
i decided to go in and check, also bc i was worried for the horses. i opened one of the two doors in the wide double door gate into the main hall ish which was a stable? and asked out loud if anyone was there. i just saw a few horses in their boxes, all seeming p happy to have human company again.
what i hadn't noticed because of the complete lack of light in the room except the little daylight coming in from old dusty windows and the door slightly agape from where i had entered was the ...... SKELETAL T-REX STANDING RIGHT NEXT TO ME. when i turned around to the side and noticed it, i somehow managed not to scream or make any sudden movements, unlike when the orcas had been there. i slowly walked backwards out the door, and managed to close it behind me -- but the second i tried to lock it, the skeletal t-rex pressed its nose against the door to keep it open, and i yelped, fearing that it would escape with me and eat me or go wild in the town next to me where my good friend also lived (i still cared even though i was upset).
somehow, i managed to get the gates closed again behind me, but when i turned around, a fully saddled horse was standing there next to me, a light reddish colour that made it look almost pinkish. i stared at it for a moment and petted it when it came over, curious, but i had no clue how it had arrived without me noticing. i tried telling it to go back to where it came from, but, being a horse, it just kinda stood there and looked at me, not understanding. i turned around to figure out what to do, knowing i couldn't ignore it, but i also couldn't go back to the stables with the skeletal t-rex. the other horses were safe bc they were in their respective boxes, but this one? i looked behind the buildings to the paddocks, all kind of sad and muddy with barely any grass, just a big tub of water in the middle and some trees here and there. i didn't see an opening to it either, and all the other buildings looked kinda like they were falling apart. not knowing what to do, i took off the bridle, gesturing for the horse to leave. once again, it just sort of blinked at me before nuzzling my hand (yes... very soft...)
in the end i decided to take it with me. i dont remmeber putting the bridle back on, but i grabbed the rein and started walking next to it, when suddenly!! A TOWN GUARD appeared. so, these had been there when i went to the airport too and when i was visiting my friend earlier. they were like, fully armored knights, even though we were supposed to be in the 21st century, but no one really commented on it. they were also definitely not good people, kind of corrupt etc. i managed to make him go away after being questioned a bit and continued down the gravel road towards my friend's house, not sure of my plan. i guess i could put the horse in her stables and make amends with her?
the dream actually ended with me reaching the gates to her place, and she was out riding her own horse on the riding ground in full show gear, but no helmet. we couldn't have anything covering her face as she saw me walk towards the gates with that random (but very beautiful) horse, still clearly upset about our fight from earlier but also relief to see me again.
AND ... then i woke up. had some iced coffee, thought abt the dream and played some mobile games. the dream was weird, particularly w this girl being like p much taken from an 'ideal girl' from a long gone time in my life, but the friendship since childhood and even the budding friendship w the other girls, it all felt oddly real and i almost feel like i miss this person that was never in my life (or existed in the first place)
the skeletal t-rex was kinda cool too, and my new horse companion. idk what i would've named him
i was visiting a good old friend, not a real one i think, she seemed to be like the type who'd be an 'influencer' but like the kind whos vegan and like 7 years ago when most sponsorships were like swimsuit brands. and like an australian blonde skinny girl, except she was american. we were in her beach house, she said it was in florida. it didn't really feel like florida, not that ive ever been there, but yeah. it was nice is all i know. almost barbie like. i asked if she lived there all year and she was like duh, im from north carolina. she only went here w her family in summer and had invited me + other friends many summers over the years to have some company in this big luxurious house. i remember there being like 4 other girls that were her friends, i didnt know them but we got to know each other and became friends when playing in the water.
there was only like a tiny beach, kind of like the secret one in acnh, and next to it were cliffs too, and we sat on one and enjoyed the sun after playing with some dolphins. i wasnt super scared when doing that, but out of habit, since i have some anxiety lol, i was watching the water and any bigger shadows. i saw 2 that looked sorta like dolphins, but their back fins were bigger, almost sharper.. i said "dolphins" out loud just as i realised they weren't -- they were killer whales (well, orcas, but in my dream i thought killer whales bc that sounds scarier and that's what i had just read the night before irl in a dnd book about monster stats). one of them rolled onto the beach and the other swam up close to the cliff we were on, as if threatening us. i was like UHHH FUCK and moved towards the house entrance and my friend grabbed my arm and told me we had to stand still. out of anxiety i just went NOPE and ran towards the house and got there safely. a few seconds after, the rest of the girls joined. also, that thing happened where the skies instantly turned grey when danger happened LOL so suddenly it was all gloomy. she was kind of mad at me and i got really upset and mad at her too.
i dont remember much but we had a fight, and a kind of serious one, not just about the orcas lol, but enough for me to seriously want to go home. i first went to the guest room just to cool down, the room where me and the other visiting friends slept.
it wasn't as luxurious as the rest of the house. the beds were taking up most of the rooms, all single beds separated by thin walls and then curtains covering them. there was also a small bathroom for us to share, though, and table with a mirror, all furniture was pretty simple and wooden, kind of ugly compared to the rest of the house, but it was still nice being there.
i had become friends w the other girls visiting too, like the kind of closeness you can only feel after having spent every waking moment for days with complete strangers, like we had gotten very close it felt, but we also knew so little about each other.
i went to my bed to cool down but was too upset, so i sat up and pulled aside the curtain to the friend next to me who was napping, about to complain about my friend, the host, when i noticed the letter in her arms that she hadn't opened yet. it said "happy birthday" from her, and i realised i couldn't complain abt this girl who was actually long time friends w all of us to a girl who i had only known for a few days. if she had done the same to me, i would've taken my friend's side as well.
i told her happy birthday, not knowing it was her bday, and she smiled, picking up the letter and reading it. i read a bit over her shoulder, realising my friend had been a really nice and thoughtful friend to her, so i obviously couldn't talk about her to this girl. the reminder that my friend was actually a really sweet girl also just made me feel more upset.
idk, there was probably also clearly something more going on, she and i had fought and it seemed like more than just a friendship thing? but something neither of us were brave enough to get into. something more had been budding for a while and while we both knew it, it actually never got to a romance state, both of us being too stubborn and scared. i think she felt like she had to live up to the expectations of her, being a classic 'perfect' girl, and i felt like i was from a completely different world, especially when visiting her in these surroundings. like i came from a boring rainy country no one cared about, and while this wasn't actually her world, it still felt like it.
anyway, i decided i was going to go home, and, still offended she agreed, ordering to bring me to the airport. it was a tiny coastal town, so the airport was little and shitty, adn i got on the small plane, only for it to crash, or at least for me to fall out while we were still taking off. i honestly dont remember how it happened, this being a dream and all, but i ended up falling in the water, terrified again, bc deep open water... my fear lol. but realising the coast was pretty close, i only had to swim like 200 meters, so it wasnt a big deal and nothing happened lol.
i came back to dry land and it was baically this coastal gravel road, with water on one side and houses on the other. not just houses, they were like farms. or like horse places clearly, like hers too she had a riding ground in front of her house too behind the outer walls
anyway the one at the end of the road was like. kind of run down and seemed abandoned, despite there still being horses outside. very unlike the fancier ones next to it
i decided to go in and check, also bc i was worried for the horses. i opened one of the two doors in the wide double door gate into the main hall ish which was a stable? and asked out loud if anyone was there. i just saw a few horses in their boxes, all seeming p happy to have human company again.
what i hadn't noticed because of the complete lack of light in the room except the little daylight coming in from old dusty windows and the door slightly agape from where i had entered was the ...... SKELETAL T-REX STANDING RIGHT NEXT TO ME. when i turned around to the side and noticed it, i somehow managed not to scream or make any sudden movements, unlike when the orcas had been there. i slowly walked backwards out the door, and managed to close it behind me -- but the second i tried to lock it, the skeletal t-rex pressed its nose against the door to keep it open, and i yelped, fearing that it would escape with me and eat me or go wild in the town next to me where my good friend also lived (i still cared even though i was upset).
somehow, i managed to get the gates closed again behind me, but when i turned around, a fully saddled horse was standing there next to me, a light reddish colour that made it look almost pinkish. i stared at it for a moment and petted it when it came over, curious, but i had no clue how it had arrived without me noticing. i tried telling it to go back to where it came from, but, being a horse, it just kinda stood there and looked at me, not understanding. i turned around to figure out what to do, knowing i couldn't ignore it, but i also couldn't go back to the stables with the skeletal t-rex. the other horses were safe bc they were in their respective boxes, but this one? i looked behind the buildings to the paddocks, all kind of sad and muddy with barely any grass, just a big tub of water in the middle and some trees here and there. i didn't see an opening to it either, and all the other buildings looked kinda like they were falling apart. not knowing what to do, i took off the bridle, gesturing for the horse to leave. once again, it just sort of blinked at me before nuzzling my hand (yes... very soft...)
in the end i decided to take it with me. i dont remmeber putting the bridle back on, but i grabbed the rein and started walking next to it, when suddenly!! A TOWN GUARD appeared. so, these had been there when i went to the airport too and when i was visiting my friend earlier. they were like, fully armored knights, even though we were supposed to be in the 21st century, but no one really commented on it. they were also definitely not good people, kind of corrupt etc. i managed to make him go away after being questioned a bit and continued down the gravel road towards my friend's house, not sure of my plan. i guess i could put the horse in her stables and make amends with her?
the dream actually ended with me reaching the gates to her place, and she was out riding her own horse on the riding ground in full show gear, but no helmet. we couldn't have anything covering her face as she saw me walk towards the gates with that random (but very beautiful) horse, still clearly upset about our fight from earlier but also relief to see me again.
AND ... then i woke up. had some iced coffee, thought abt the dream and played some mobile games. the dream was weird, particularly w this girl being like p much taken from an 'ideal girl' from a long gone time in my life, but the friendship since childhood and even the budding friendship w the other girls, it all felt oddly real and i almost feel like i miss this person that was never in my life (or existed in the first place)
the skeletal t-rex was kinda cool too, and my new horse companion. idk what i would've named him